Often, I sit alone and become lost in my thoughts. I wonder about those I have come into contact with in SL and how they are doing. I think about those who have come into my life and hold a deep-rooted place within my heart. I contemplate those who I have let move on, yet grateful that they still remain within my life – while others are no longer there and a hole has been left in their place. I contemplate what my SL will look like, what I will do, and where I will go. I long for family and friends – some old and some new.
I struggle daily with wanting to talk to people, but, also with not wanting to bother them. I spend hours in deep contemplation on if I should reach out and say hello or if I should leave them alone. While I long to talk to others, the idea of bothering them takes over. I wonder how people are doing, what they have been up to, and if we could spend time together. Yet, fear and worry take over and I revert back inside myself, back into deep contemplation. Those closest to me will, in their time, reach out because they understand and know how I do not like to interfere with what they are currently doing.
Often, I sit alone and contemplate my downfalls, my desire to make others happy while sacrificing myself, and the time I want to spend with them. I contemplate if I need to change my views and force myself on others – but that is not who I am, not in SL and not in RL. So alone I will sit in deep contemplation, with a dog nipping my toes and cats running amuck.
What I am wearing:
Top ~ Ashlee Tank by Pink Cream Pie
Pants ~ Beth Capris by Pink Cream Pie
Shoes ~ Gamer Girl Sneakers by Spoiled
Body ~ Mesh Body – Lara V5.1 by Maitreya
Head ~ Infinity Alex Hybrid Mesh Avatar – Almond by Logo
Shape ~ Jesse by -Belleza-
Hair ~ Mireay – light browns by Truth
Eyes ~ Moka Eyes – Sapphire by Buzzeri
Tattoo ~ Bad Kitty by Dappa
Bracelets ~ Jelly Bangles – blue by Kibitz
Poses I am using:
Perseverance.1 by Ecru…Couture (for The Liaison Collaborative July Event POP!)
Props I am using:
Alalula Backdrop by Serenity Style (for The Liaison Collaborative July Event POP!)
Chinese Crested – Chocolate Wanderer (REZ) by *HEXtraordinary*
* Sweet Garden Grass06 – mix(cool colors)*a by HPMD